Mister Bean
December 25, 2023 I miss our cat, Mr. Bean. It's been a short time of about 3 weeks to grieve, so what I can share isn't worth a novel. There have been many touching moments I want to remember. Sharing them will help me heal bit by bit, even if it takes longer than I expected. Bean's death itself was unexpected and so we're all feeling it differently. I'm dealing with it by hanging onto his last few touched items and slowly letting them go when I'm ready - a shawl he slept on, a blanket from the crate he was carried in, and his brush. That's normal and I don't need to throw them away to let go, but just put them to rest. He was put to rest and now the aftermath is following suit, with lots more raw emotion without him here. A startling realization I had of Bean was almost right away after trying to clean the house. For the last week of his precious life, he was unable to control his bowels and we were constantly cleaning the floors. He went in every si...