Wait on the Lord 🙏

I've been waiting. 

The summer was a struggle here at Hull Street. We battled illness and mental health and spiritual realms. I don't fully understand the plan God has for us, but it doesn't seem easy or comfortable. Only a month after these trials, we all are under the weather again and it seems to affect me psychologically this time. I feel a nearly PTSD-like response in my body. I am triggered by loud noises, or chaos in my environment. I like control of my space but can't seem to control my own body or self. I eat lots of sugar even though I want to discipline more in this area. My flesh is desiring too much. My soul is weary under its weight. 

God showed me it wasn't the summer ending that would change me or my life. It was Him. Waiting on Him.

He is near the broken hearted, the downcast spirit, and the lowly. 

I'm all of that and more. He is not. 

Wait on the Lord. We have a choice to surrender and praise Him, to His glory, forever. Or we wait on circumstances. 

He never changes. Circumstances do. 

Although I enjoy autumn, it's not what I've been waiting for. I'm hopeful for God in Jesus Christ. Like the leaves falling, I keep falling short due to my lack of love for Him. But He never fails. And that's what we're all waiting for.